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[03 May 2005|07:29am]
[ mood | calm ]

ok so, i'm feeling better today. But who knows what the day will have in store for me. (God, i only have five minutes to type this cuz the death clock until school starts is ticking away). I hope it goes well in school today. So...uhh...i really don't have much to say. I don't know. Yesterday was kinda crappy at school. People didn't pick on me as much. Oh wait a minute, yes they did; scratch that. Then i had track practice, that was alright...no it wasn't, it rained like hell and i was freezing cold. Then i had to go home and i didn't want to call my mom to pick me up cuz we weren't on exactly good terms (or more, i wasn't on good terms with her; i don't know how she felt). So in the end i walked home in the nasty weather. It eventually started hailing on me, halfway to my house. That really sucked cuz it really does hurt when you have peices of ice smacking you in the head. hmmm, well i hope today goes well. (didn't i already say that? oh well, i guess if i keep saying it enough, it might come true).

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[03 May 2005|10:23pm]
[ mood | creative ]

I'm feeling so creative right now. I just left my room from another stress attack. I think the reason for my depressions lately has been from stress. I seriously cannot wait till school ends. I've been feeling a lot of anxiety about the ACTs and whether i'll do good. I've been a good student my whole life (usually getting straight A's)but standardized tests are just not my thing. I already took the ACTs and i think i bombed it cuz the lady took my watch away (it beeps) and there was no clock in the room so i had nothing to time myself off of. I ran out of time on reading and science. It was horrible! But i hope i do better the second time around. Though i'm worried a lot about school too. I'm scared i won't get a 4.0 this cardmarking. If i don't, my awesome GPA will be ruined. Plus it'll make it a lot harder to get into UofM Ann Arbor like i want to. That's really what i'm nervous about, is UofM. That's my dream school. It's one of the top 100 universities in the nation, its very prestigous, they have an awesome engineering program, and i hear that Ann Arbor is a HUGE gay community; which is saweet! That is so where i want to go. Anyways, as i said, i'm feeling creative now. Cuz i just got out of my depression from school, and usually when i escape depression its through creative thought. So right now i'm daydreaming about really creative, crazy things like ancient civilizations, ruled by crazy queens...(not the gay kind)...and giant dragons who don't breath fire but rise from the ocean; and massive palaces that look like mountains; and an outer-space lake where all the magic begins...hahahahahaa. everyone probably thinks i'm a freak now. I am a very creative person. I write a lot. And no i'm not high right now, even though it sounds like it. Everyone in school always thinks i'm high because i think of weird stuff like that. Ironically, i've never done a single drug my entire life. I'm just naturally high on creativity. well anyways...

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