Log in

No account? Create an account
Secrets of the Heart -- Day [entries|friends|calendar]

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[30 Apr 2005|04:11pm]
[ mood | crazy, cracked out, and fun ]

So I was looking at myself in the mirror today, before i took a shower and i realized...my body really isn't so bad. Anyone who knows me well enough, knows how hard i am on myself. Well i was looking at my chest, abs, obliques (sp?), shoulders, biseps, triceps, etc and i realized that i'm pretty well defined. I mean, i may be one of the skinniest and weakest guys in my grade but at leat my body "looks" chiseled.lol. It's really quite decieving. I have no physical strength but yet, my arms look like they could beat you up. And even though i've never worked out my chest, it sort of just puffed up one day when i woke up in the morning. Like "oooh, boobs".lol. ok what am i talking about. I probably sound like such a queen. I'M NOT! lol. Am I pissing anyone off while talking like this cuz i probably sound extremely cocky by talking like this. Eat your heart out D! (D is the code name for someone i "know").

hmmmm. what else to talk about? Well i definitely need a job. like seriously. I've never worked a day in my life, never! I'm so pampered and high maintenance that i think it's becoming a problem. I've never even mowed the lawn before. When i was old enough to mowe the lawn my parents hired a lawn service so that i wouldn't have to do it. As if they just didn't want to deal with all the excessive iminent whining and bickering on my behalf. The only thing i do that constitutes as work is when i do the dishes, clean my room and heat up my own food in the microwave. But i only do those things because they're necessary to my survival. As a gay teenager i'm prone to want everything clean. I get so depressed when my room is dirty and dirty dishes make me want to throw up, so i have to do those things. (then of course, eating is a must but only in small enough portions that i retain my figure). God, I sound like i'm writing for some kind of "Gay Life" magazine...Heading:"Gay boys should live like this!!!" hahahahaha.

Anyways, I'm in a weird mood today. I'm happy and content for once. Anyone who reads my journal will probably automatically think i'm manic depressive or bipolar since every other entry either talks about how "happy and energetic" i am or how "depressed and wanting to kill myself" i am at the moment. None the less, i'm going through my happy mood right now. (I'm not bi-polar or manic depressive, or at leat i've never been diagnosed). So right now i feel happy and excessively cocky that i want to just scream in someone's face and tell them how ugly they are!!!! Of course, this'll all change in about a half hour *and counting*, and i'll return to my regular "humble" self. But whatever. Well i'm done now. Byez...and if anyone feels like killing me now, don't even try it cuz i'll be one step ahead of you (infer that however you want people).

6 comments|post comment

hehe, I love you Nancy [30 Apr 2005|04:30pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

GAWD how i love Nancy Ajram she's so amazing, she's a beautiful Lebanese singer who i simply adore. Check out her website:



post comment

[ viewing | April 30th, 2005 ]
[ go | previous day|next day ]