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[29 Apr 2005|10:19pm]
[ mood | cold ]

God, I'm so sick of life. Seriously, i'm starting to think i'm manic depressive. It's like one day, i'm super energetic and happy and the next day i'm like weak and depressed. It doesn't make sense to me. I get sad too easily. I wish I didn't. I read all the philosophy books that teach you to "love yourself" and "disagree" with what everyone says but its no use; i always go back to being sad, depressed, and negative. The thing is though, most people don't know this about me. I always act really happy and energetic and i'm always really crazy and funny...but inside, half the time, i'm really sad. I just cant show it on the outside and thats something else that makes me even more sad. I don't know, anyone who's reading this is gonna think i'm a freak, and i guess everyone else already does anyways...well, i think its school that's causing me my depression. Everyday i have another test, project, or any other stressful thing and then on top of it everyone is pissed at me all the time. They all think i'm either a snob, a jerk, or just cold. well whatever, i don't care anywmore.

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